Changing my future within 24 hours
I know what everyone says… That it’s important to do what you love etc. How about if two things you love are in conflict with each other? Prioritize, right? 
I love Law and I love International Economics/Business. So that combination was what I was planning to do all along. However having done my first International Business paper this past semester, I now realise the amount of workload involved together with Law far exceeds what I had in mind. My International Economics/Business papers next year all require highly time-consuming research essays and case studies. I can write essays, but I take a considerable amount of time. My overarching strength lies in mathematics and numbers. The Law component has enough research essays for me to do, and I want to put more time into Law instead of Commerce. So I don’t want my Commerce load crushing my Law grades. Aside from that, Finance seems to have a richer and broader future than Economics and International Business because large firms tend to be more interested in Accounting/Law, Finance/Law or Taxation/Law people. But Finance just sounds so much more boring than what I had planned before and I’m really scared of what I’m going to face in it.
I don’t know what’s with all these “big” sudden decisions I make right after a downfall in something. For example, “suddenly” deciding to skip my last year of high school right after breaking up in 2006 because there are supposed to be more and bigger fish in the sea. (Which turned out to be oh-so-wrong but it was a great decision anyway.)
And I think I sort of freaked my friend out by declaring to change my commerce major in the last minute. I start my next semester in a week and I’m having to change all my future papers. My originally-organised future plan is now a complete mess and I feel like I’m facing a new and uncertain three years ahead.
I really do believe Finance would give me a better future with more choices in the future. I just hope that I’ll grow to enjoy it so I won’t be stuck with something I find boring and fail all the way. I wouldn’t call this giving up something I love but perhaps a trade-off in the process of practically considering future workload and career prospects.
