Changing my future within 24 hours
13 July 2008, 6:40 pm. 24 Comments. Filed under Personal, School.
I know what everyone says... That it's important to do what you love etc. How about if two things you love are in conflict with each other? Prioritize, right? 
I love Law and I love International Economics/Business. So that combination was what I was planning to do all along. However having done my first International Business paper this past semester, I now realise the amount of workload involved together with Law far exceeds what I had in mind. My International Economics/Business papers next year all require highly time-consuming research essays and case studies. I can write essays, but I take a considerable amount of time. My overarching strength lies in mathematics and numbers. The Law component has enough research essays for me to do, and I want to put more time into Law instead of Commerce. So I don't want my Commerce load crushing my Law grades. Aside from that, Finance seems to have a richer and broader future than Economics and International Business because large firms tend to be more interested in Accounting/Law, Finance/Law or Taxation/Law people. But Finance just sounds so much more boring than what I had planned before and I'm really scared of what I'm going to face in it.
I don't know what's with all these "big" sudden decisions I make right after a downfall in something. For example, "suddenly" deciding to skip my last year of high school right after breaking up in 2006 because there are supposed to be more and bigger fish in the sea. (Which turned out to be oh-so-wrong but it was a great decision anyway.)
And I think I sort of freaked my friend out by declaring to change my commerce major in the last minute. I start my next semester in a week and I'm having to change all my future papers. My originally-organised future plan is now a complete mess and I feel like I'm facing a new and uncertain three years ahead.
I really do believe Finance would give me a better future with more choices in the future. I just hope that I'll grow to enjoy it so I won't be stuck with something I find boring and fail all the way. I wouldn't call this giving up something I love but perhaps a trade-off in the process of practically considering future workload and career prospects.
Just leave me to rot
25 May 2008, 9:31 pm. 25 Comments. Filed under School.
I did come up with some good blog ideas over the past 20 days, but they were so easily crushed with work stress I decided to just give up—until the stress is over.
I've been having at least a test or large assignment due every single week for the past however many weeks and will continue having this stream of workload until exams are over around the end of June.
So hey, just leave me rotting. I'll maybe post every now and then. But pray that I'll survive, and I'll come back later probably with a mock-Amanda-and-Tracy-style competition thingie. (Because I just found the cutest gift idea(s) in the store I work at. 
) Now I return to Bleach Economics assignment.
How I cope with uni
22 April 2008, 8:36 pm. 25 Comments. Filed under School.
Actually, I'm not coping at all. Just looking at my schedule of essays, tests and exams for the coming two months make me want to faint. But, I'm finally making some progress shaking off the holiday mode.
Wait. Am I really though? I still haven't managed to get rid of my habit of falling asleep in classes; and it's worse when I fall asleep in a small tutorial class of no more than ten students. There has to be something wrong with Economics which makes me fall asleep in all Economics classes since 2006. No matter how hard I try to stay awake, I just end up falling asleep again and again.
Awake... awake... zzz... shit. Awake. And repeat. That's how it is in every Economics class.
Test tomorrow and I'm still confused in some places. But I have made effort to cram in the content! (Into my books at least. Not too sure about my brain.)
I'm glad I recorded my exam studying freak days from end of last year to remind myself of how I got through all that. But it's hard to feel so determined to study at this time of the year. 
That's why I'm still procrastinating. Zooming in on handwriting is fun.
